Pink Notes: Toxic Thursday

Just woke up coming from night shift (its 1pm here). Saying it was a busy shift was an understatement. Toxic is a term we use when a shift becomes too busy and quite unexpected… its even worse than a busy busy shift.

It was a challenge considering there was only 4 of us running the whole area. I was in charge so my heart was in my throat once again. Time management was key and the power of anticipation was as important.

Had to clean the whole area from end to end and from wall to wall. Prepped patients with povidone. Give due meds and take vital signs. Check instruments. Pull out and set up instruments for the next day cases. Admit patients. It was that crazy.

I felt like an octopus with an energy of the energizer bunny it was that busy. You just kept going and going and going.

I was quite anxious (as always) but fun. It was a good type of nervousness cause it kept me on my toes and I was just glad I got the job done. Considering I’ve been at this for a couple of years I would think I’d get used to these things… everyday is just full of surprises as I encounter different cases and patients. No experience is the same.

Huge sigh left me after endorsements but with a huge grin on my face. Mission accomplished and it was a successful shift! Now I am off to make the best of my 3 day weekend!

Until my next blog post!

Joan Gillen
(The girl on a mission and full of anxiety)

Movie Reel: Hope Springs

I was prepared to watch a rom com movie but this movie made me cry and laugh at the same time. It is definitely a couples movie so if you are in a relationship I think its a movie worth watching with your significant other.

 I think that was the torture part of the movie… it did not help that I was seating at the last row and saw that seats occupied were mostly in pairs with a one seat gap per couple it was ridiculously funny to observe (yes I am that observant its a surprisingly creepy skill I have).

 The movie deals with a married couple who had been together for 31 years and they have lost their connection with their marriage. They coast through life like a routine and just existed. They sought help and eventually made progress with their relationship but still with obstacles.

 It’s such a touching movie finding and rekindling love even after being together for so many years. You have to take a leap of faith with your partner and the willingness to try things even if it seems silly.

Cause even the silliest things can be a prelude to something forward .

Pink Notes: Things About Me

I love to sing… but not in public.
I enjoy dancing… but only on special occasions.
I like listening to almost all types of music… except heavy metal.
I will always love boy bands… yes they will always hold a special place in my heart.

I people watch… but not in a creepy way.
I love to read novels… I like how I get lost in the emotion and be in a bubble.
I watch a movie almost once a week… its my reward for a good work week.

I enjoy traveling… its an escape, love to experience new culture and take pictures of places.
I’m a gadget geek… I’m a happy little camper every time I get to play with new toys.

I’m always in search of a good cup of coffee… americano to be exact, no sugar and milk.
Not much of a drinker… but I can hold my own.
I have never been drunk (I think).

I want to make a difference… but I do not know how.
I like helping people… it makes me extremely happy.

I hate snakes and any other reptiles for that matter.
I’m scared of heights and thrill rides… it’ll be the death of me!
Scary movies give me nightmares.

I don’t like surprises… I am an anxious person.
I over think a lot… And I am pessimistic.
I worry about my future… more than an average person would spend on a daily basis.

I have never been in love… I would love to BUT I don’t think I will ever be.
I’m a hopeless romantic.
A sentimental dreamer.

I enjoy writing… even if a few people read my thoughts.
I express myself better in writing than in person.
I am awkward.

And I love the world wide web and all its amazing possibilities.

So those are some stuff about me and I have a long night ahead doing some party planning on the side… making the most out of this very late evening/ early morning! Until my next blog post!

Love Lots,

Joan Gillen
(The girl with the messed up body clock and I am pretty sure I live in a different time zone.)

Pink Notes: I Really Want To Sing!

Woke up today thinking I have work. And now I cannot seem to go back to sleep thus this blog entry.

And I felt like singing so I opened my iTunes and sang my heart out. My dad is an amazing singer and I do not know why neither me or my brother got that gene. It is so frustrating… we might have had half of the gene since my brother has the confidence and I have a decent singing voice.

Its just that I am scared of singing out loud and in public. That’s my issue according to my dad and well according to me.

My dad says its never too late and if I wanted to I could… no one can ever stop me from singing. Its all about practice.

I really want to learn how to decently sing I just think that people who can sing can convey so many emotions. They can easily hum their way to a song to any mood. I think that is a great gift.

And I think people who can sing are happy people. They can entertain themselves just by singing a song. I think that’s awesome!

Okay off to singing my heart out and until my next blog post!

Love Lots,

The Frustrated Singer with Severe Stage Fright!

Pink Notes: Blog Inspiration (Warms My Heart!)

I got a tweet early afternoon after work from @MinksBasset saying she got a glimpse of my blog via @DarwinBlake and she thought it was lovely (this made my day with a huge smile on my face).

It warms my heart knowing that someone actually reads my blog more so people from across the globe. Its fascinating!

And hearing this from her made me extra happy:

@joangillen You both inspire me to give it a try…

Reading things such as this makes me ecstatic. I think its the greatest compliment one can receive. 

I started this blog a few years back trying to motivate myself  I needed to vent out and blogging was my release. Its therapeutic just getting thoughts out of your head. Its an added bonus when people get to identify with what you write.
Darwin, thanks for that RT… this would not have been possible without it… thank you!
Minks, I do hope you would give it a try it’ll surprise you how good you’ll feel after a blog post :) And who knows your blog might inspire someone too! If you need help or have questions you know where to contact me :) 
To everyone, thanks for taking time in reading my blog and my random thoughts. Know that it means a lot and inspires me. 
Big hug for everyone! 

Coffee Cups: Amici Gelateria

Everyone who knows me knows I love coffee and got this inspiration from a friend. Bulk of my salary is spent on drinking coffee so might as well put it to good use. I will try to post as many coffee cups as I can in my lifetime.

Americano no sugar & cream just the way I like it!

Activity: Reading #TheSiren by Tiffany Reisz such a good book.

Movie Reel: 6 Rules from People Like Us

As promised I am to share with you the 6 Rules from the movie PEOPLE LIKE US


  • If you like something because you think other people are going to like it, it’s a sure bet that no one will.  
  • Most doors in the world are closed, so if you find one that you want to get into, you damn well better have an interesting knock.  
  • Everything that you think is important isn’t. Everything that you think is unimportant is.  
  • Don’t shit where you eat.  
  • Lean into it. The outcome doesn’t matter. What matters is that you were there for it, whatever ‘it’ is – good or bad.  
  • Don’t sleep with people who have more problems than you do.
Sounds funny and simple but completely makes sense. Have a good day everyone!

Random Ramblings: His Mysterious Presence

I find it fascinating that I cannot see his face but his presence is so much felt. The conversations were random, simple but fun.

With him I can completely be myself.

I find all of this weird because and I know it should not even exist. What’s even worse is that I might be the only one feeling such thing.

But sometimes it’s no longer important if you are affected by his mysterious presence the thing is you discover things… through his presence. 

And with that I thank the instance of having met you :)

Pink Notes: Steady Busy and Busy Busy

Work has been “steady busy” which is good cause things occur at a sane and realistic pace and not needing to literally cutting your body into half and doing so many things at once.

I would always go for a “steady busy” than a “busy busy” work day.

“Busy busy” work days are the most terrible because you act like an octopus doing so many things at the same time you have no idea how you got things done but you did it anyways.

I think I’ve practiced the art of “multi tasking” at work its the skill you need to survive the workplace aside from the tough skin (the tough skin after 3.5 years of working is not my strongest suit).

I don’t like to lose the feeling of feelings cause its so important in my line of work. I’d rather get hurt and cry than to not feel anything at all.

Have a good night everybody and cheers to 2 more days of work!

Pink Notes: Happiness

I laughed and smiled so much today. Its such a wonderful feeling that it overwhelms me. I was having a difficult and heavy morning but everything changed in the course of the afternoon. Words are indeed very powerful. I did not even need a hearty laugh to everyone who made my day turn around thank you so much!

I have a four day work week ahead me so I am off to bed in a few. Have a good night everyone! My happiness will continue in my dreams :)