Pink Notes: Things About Me

I love to sing… but not in public.

I enjoy dancing… but only on special occasions.

I like listening to almost all types of music.

I will always love some boy bands… yes they were a big part of my teen years.

I people watch… but not in a creepy way.

I love to read novels… I like how I get lost in the emotion and be in a bubble.

I watch a movie almost once a week… its my reward for a good work week.

I enjoy traveling… its an escape, love to experience new culture and take pictures of places.

I’m a gadget geek… I’m a happy little camper every time I get to play with new toys.

I’m always in search of a good cup of coffee… americano to be exact, no sugar and milk.

Not much of a drinker… but I can hold my own.

I have never been drunk (I think).

I want to make a difference… but I do not know how.

I like helping people… it makes me extremely happy.

I hate snakes and any other reptiles for that matter.

I’m scared of heights and thrill rides… it’ll be the death of me!

Scary movies give me nightmares.

I don’t like surprises… I am an anxious person.

I over think a lot… And I am pessimistic.

I worry about my future… more than an average person would spend on a daily basis.

I have never been in love… if it happens it happens type of thing.

I’m a hopeless romantic.

A sentimental dreamer.

I enjoy writing… even if a few people read my thoughts.

I express myself better in writing than in person.

It takes a while for me to warm up to people.

I am awkward.

And I love the world wide web and all its amazing possibilities.

Love Lots,

Joan Gillen

(The girl with the messed up body clock and I am pretty sure I live in a different time zone.)

Random Ramblings: Magnetism

We stand in a room filled with candles
Our shadows against the light
Tension builds the air
As our need for each other grows stronger
The glances from this short distance
Makes our breath shallow but heavy
Filled with lust
As we move closer inch by inch
Magnetism builds even more
I now see your face and its every detail
Your eyes filled with blaze
Burning with desire
Hearts beat faster like drums thumping
Out of control about to explode
I feel his breath touching my skin
Moments away
To that coveted touch
Our hands finally intertwined
The contact electrifies our body
An intensity like no other
Leading to an occurence
I cannot explain further…

(c) from the Random Ramblings of The Adventures of Pink Bonnet Girl

Pink Notes: Frantic Friday

Everyone I know seems to be having a busy Friday work day. I did too. It was crazy. We were like a glass of bottomless iced tea. We just kept on refilling patients.

Rules in the area still applied. As when patients came they came in 3s. One gives birth we just put someone back in. Nonetheless it was a fun and smooth shift.

Tomorrow’s schedule is bonkers! It will be a Round Robin Saturday. We have about 8 minor cases. These minor cases finish in less than 30 minutes (the actual procedure). So by the time the case ends, the room is cleaned and on to the next case. Its going to be hectic but when its done its done. But with the combination of major cases and who knows how many will still be in labor… it will be an exciting duty tomorrow to say the least!

So will it be a steady busy or a busy busy shift? We will see by tomorrow. Oh and well this is also a test post to see if my blog feeds through Goodreads.

Love Lots,

Joan Gillen
(The girl who is excited for work… and making a test post)

Pink Notes: 100th Post

As I have mentioned before I have been AWOL and have been feeling guilty about it. And well its not that I did not want to write but nothing was just coming through for me. I have tons of ramblings in draft cause they remain unfinished. Sad but true.

Today is different, I got to post a new rambling called SMILE. Finally something finished and well everybody who knows me know I write because it elicits an emotion inside of me. That happened today. And that single moment when I sincerely smiled today it blew me away. 
These past few days I have been generally okay but I feel like I was just coasting through everyday. You know how sometimes you do things but you do not have enough moment to feel or take it in. That’s how its been for me. 
And then one Sunday afternoon, I was reading a poem by a friend called HUG (to my friend, please don’t get creeped out if you are reading this). And after reading it genuinely I had a huge smile on my face. Unknowingly, I was staring at my phone reading the post and there it was this big smile and I felt that smile within me. That moment felt so good and I held on to that feeling for the rest of the day.
Before I forget that poem was my 100th post. So hooray! And thats even more reason for me to keep that poem special. And as I write I would like to thank @Literati_Lit and @beth_lehman for the retweets and kind words. You guys are awesome and I have been a silent and lurking fan of both of. Lol. 
To more inspiration and writings!
Love Lots,
Joan Gillen
(The girl who smiled genuinely today)
 

Random Ramblings: Smile

It takes different forms and sizes.
With a curve of the lips.
Or with a showing of teeth.
It extends from cheek to cheek.
It changes a day, even a mood.
It makes a difference who you give it to.

Simper to a person who looks at you.
Grin to camera when a picture is taken.
Laugh when you have a funny moment.
Smile if there is even not enough reason.

Smile as much as you can.
Cause you will never know who is around the corner.
A lover, admirer or just a friend.
But a smile is a smile.
It can make a day worthwhile.
And turn a frown upside down.

Pink Notes: An Expecting Mother’s Pain

I was deeply moved with things at work today. Pregnancy seems to be one the most natural thing for a woman to experience. Their bodies were designed to endure this occurrence if and when they decide to have a child. But then like everything else complication arises.

For a woman, being a mother is one of the most rewarding role they can have. I saw one mom’s struggle to have that happen. It was a difficult pregnancy trying to control her premature labor.

Random Ramblings: Unfinished

I feel so much pain in my heart.
Like I am about to burst like a bubble.
It used to be full of happiness.
Filled to the brim, overflowing.

I feel so alone in this hurt.
I do not know how to stop and ease the pain.
My mind tries to see hope in this torment.
But my heart only perceives sadness.

Time and space is what you seek
To find the answers to the questions you heed.
I wish to find positivity in this misery.
A moment of clarity is what we both need in this uncertainty.

Only time will tell what the future brings.
In the end we will remain unfinished.

Pink Notes: National Poetry Day

I have been AWOL in writing for the past few weeks (insert guilty feeling). But I have been reading a lot of great prose from a lot of friends and they are all so good. And since its National Poetry Day I think it is just fitting to honor them.

I have only met @beth_lehman for a couple of weeks and if I remember correctly she accidentally read one of my writings. She liked it and I was surprised. Little did I know this sweet lady had a talent for prose. Its amazing how she writes its like words flow like a river, streaming and effortless. I rarely respond but know that I read them. I’m a silent fan :)

And of course there is @DarwinBlake. My prince of prose as I call him. His talent for words are just breathtaking its like he pulls out his poems like tricks from his sleeves. His way of writing conjures emotions like magic when you read his work. It makes you smile, inspired and well most of the time flourished 😉 My first writing was inspired by him so he holds a special place in my heart. Thanks for everything Darwin.

I seldom write and usually I do it because I have an emotion I cannot contain or express. Writing gives me that avenue to pour everything without judgement. And well these two lovely people have done that, read my few writings with open minds and know that I appreciate it a lot.

To everyone else who have taken time to read my ramblings. Thank you. To everyone who wants to write… just keep on writing… let the words do the talking!

Happy National Poetry Day!

Love Lots,

Joan Gillen :)
(The girl who likes to write… and is currently looking for a good muse to inspire her)

Random Ramblings: Space

I was praying I could meet somebody. And you came in to my life unexpectedly.
You said I was beautiful

I shed a tear
You told me you needed to think
It was my first heartache
I cried like a river
I tell myself I am strong enough to pick up the pieces
Although I am broken
My world ended

There will come a time
Wherein I can be with someone
Who will love me unconditionally
With no exceptions and conditions

Love that will stand the test of time
Love that has no boundaries
Love that is simple but meaningful

Running through my head

You are not on my mind
Forced to face the truth but I still think about you