The Law of Attraction, Slacking Off, Watching TV Series & Movies and Uncertainties

Okay I have been battling myself to post an entry here in my blog ever since I got home but all I have are like series or numbers of drafts and in the end I do not post it. It was as if the post I created were senseless.

Ever since I got back I have been literally slacking off. In a way I felt it was justified after hearing I passed the exam and like what I said that exam was super hard. Then since movies in the US are kind of expensive (I mean if I convert it to Philippine Peso its so unreasonable) I missed out on a lot of movies. Thank God for the cheap movies and the you know what here I have been catching up and been watching DVD’s for the past 2 weeks. Even on TV Series since I was studying I didn’t get the chance to watch all the shows I liked and now I am catching up on previous seasons. I already finished Grey’s Anatomy Season 3 and Halfway done on Nip/Tuck Season 4, The OC Season 4 and My Name is Earl Season 2 next on the line is Heroes, Ugly Betty and House MD Season 3.

I have yet to prepare to retake Test 3 and 5 of the Philippine Nursing Licensure Exam on December. I really feel bad in retaking this because I know I shouldn’t be. I mean I passed it fair and square and now our batch gets to pay for the selfish actions of others its so unfair. If this just hadn’t blown up in proportion none of this would have happened. But there is nothing I can do I mean I should just learn to accept it and move on the more I feel bad about this the harder it would be for me to study. I just find it nervewracking to take this test again its so unpredictable.

At the same time I am trying my luck on finding work abroad. I thought that after taking the NCLEX-RN exam it would be a lot easier for me. A big weight has been lifted definitely but there is something about being uncertain for my future that freaks me out a little bit. I am in the process of making my resume to try out my luck for sponsorships and work. Now I have come to realize that as much as there are so many demands for nurses it does not seem that a lot sponsor nurses or if there are they have so many restrictions.

Aside from the fact that I have so much idle time in my hands I really have minor stuffs to deal with. I have been slacking off and well I haven’t had the guts to ask my dad to teach me how to improve my driving skills. I mean I can drive but after being in the US for 5 months and well seeing the roads here in Manila really scared the hell out of me when I got back. Literally I was shouting when I saw the jeepneys and buses swerve like crazy it takes some getting used to I guess.

I need to fix my Internet its too freaking slow so hopefully within the month the broadband thing can be finalized. I have no idea which company is the best to use but I need a faster internet. I cannot seem to get anything done with dial-up its frustrating.

Oh yeah I started on reading The Secret. I know its pretty late cause the hype with the book was few months ago. I actually heard this from my dad when he texted me about it while I was in the US. And one day I was at Costco looking around with my mom and then I saw the book so I got it and had it sent over to my Dad here in Manila. I was under the impression that he wanted to read it but then only to find out he wanted me to read it so that I would be inspired. So given the time in my hands I decided to read the book before sleeping or when I get tired of watching TV. I have to admit I had my reservations in reading the book cause it seemed so serious. I am only at the beginning and its very promising… I am really hoping that this book will shed light on me since I have so many uncertainties in my head.

Well its too early for me to reflect on my experiences with what the book says but it has something to do with the law of attraction and so far it does make sense.

Its barely been a month but I miss a lot of things in the US already. I miss my brother, sis in law and most especially my niece Lia. I could just imagine what she can do now she is 5 months. Its too bad I cannot be there when she starts feeding thats the fun part of infancy aside from the walking and stuff. I just wish to see her soon.

I hope I get to accomplish more soon… I definitely cannot stand being idle and just slacking off its not me.

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